I’m sure that I’m a little bit upset about not going to prom and I’ll never deny a feeling if its true. But in a little way aaaallllll the way down inside me- I’m kind of glad that I’m not going, because if I went I would think I’d want to go with someone who’s really special and would make the whole night really special. And being as that’s not my situation right now, I’m sort of glad that I’m not going under false pretenses. Because I think itd just be silly to get all dressed up and fancy-fied for something you’re not going to have the time of your life at. Hell- I’ve had the time of my life in my jeans and a t shirt sitting on the curb just talking. I think I’m gonna wear jeans and a tee tomorrow :)
I’m gonna sleep like a baby tonight. I’d normally come on here and write something about life, or edit a little known photo of 1976 robert de niro because he’s the man (as is present day de niro) .But anyways I’m soooo sleepy its almost silly. Lifes life. Not too bad, nothing to write home about, but eh I’m not dying so hey! Anyways good night, may I meet james franco in a dream this lovely saturday eve.
Anonymous asked: ur really fucking hot, just lose the glassess.
I was trying to think of a witty little comment for this sort of weird little message here, but just do not have one.
I know I’ve been a little quiet lately, maybe even a tiny bit withdrawn, but its not on purpose and I’m certainly working on it. I think I’m just learning the solace that comes with keeping to yourself. I hope my friends don’t mind, I’m not as loud or maybe as funny as I’ve been in the past, but I am more at peace with everything, especially the things I can’t change. I don’t know where most things are going in my life, and I don’t know how many people will stick it through with me, but I really am the same girl I’ve always been. I mean I’m less than two weeks away from being a fully grown lady (isn’t that weird?). But I’ll always be the same way, trying to laugh and make other people laugh just the same; I want to give and maybe receive a little bit if fate so desires. Anyway, I guess I wrote this because I’d really like the people who are my friends, or even those I don’t know that well but genuinely care about be, well I want them to stay beside me. Every path seems awful lonely if you have to walk it all alone.
Its like I just want all the kids to know to stop reaching for the golden ring on the carousel. Cus somebodys gonna get knocked down off their little horse but it could be any of them, it doesn’t matter who’s being the nicest or the most well behaved. Its gonna hurt really badly when they fall and not for a short time but for a long time and they could grow up like me. And I think I’m like holden caulfield in that, I don’t want anyone to grow up like me. they’ll have the best intent like I always had, but they’ll get hurt a lot, and they’ll take it all to heart, their white hearts are gnna get stained and old, and they might feel like I do now. And I don’t want any of the kids to feel like I do now, I just want them to stop reaching for that stupid freaking golden ring.
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